Wednesday, March 25, 2009

My heart is broken


We had to put our dog Kasper to sleep last Monday, March 16 and I miss him so much. We took him to the vet on March 11th and we found out he had IMH, it's basically where his body was eating his red blood cells faster then what he could make them.
They put him on meds to try to stop it but they were not working, he was just slowly getting weaker and would not do anything but lay on the couch.
We then took him to an Emergency Vet on Sunday March 14th and they gave him more blood, hoping that would work, but it did not and his blood count was still dropping, so the following day we took him back to his regular vet and made the hard decision to put him to sleep as we couldn't see him suffer any more.
I knew something was wrong with him the first day we took him to vet as this was a dog that would rather be outside then in the house and he did not want to go outside at all.
This was so unexpected, one day he was fine, the next he was so sick.
He was only 10 years old and had so much energy and was always ready to play, he was such a happy dog. We just lost our other one not even a year ago and we were so not ready to say good-bye to this one. We thought we would have him for another 5 years or so.
I've been crying for over 2 weeks now as it started when we saw that he wasn't getting any better and it just comes on whenever now. I miss this guy so much and it will be a long time before the hurt and anger goes away.
Good-bye Kasper, we will see you again. Have fun playing with Shadow & Hunter.

24 comments:

Janene said...

Debbi~I am so sorry to hear of your loss!
They become so much a part of our families.
I hope that your grieving will be short lived.

Tomatoe Creek Prims said...

So sorry to read that you had to put him down...it hurts I know.
Rondell

Wendi said...

I am so sorry. I hope your heart mends quickly!

Kim~HomeIsWhereTheHeartIs said...

Dear Debbi,
I'm so sorry for your loss.
{{{Hugs}}}
Kim

Lisa said...

Debbi - I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that sweet memories of your dog bring you comfort and peace during this difficult time.

Hugs,
Lisa

Carmen said...

I'm so saddened to hear about your loss, Have been there and done that and it certainly is a hard time to go through!Just know that your precious companion is in a much better place where there is no suffering and think of the wonderful reunion you will have someday:) ((HUGS))

Sandy said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Dogs are a man's best friend and we become so attached to them, making it that much harder to say good-bye. My thoughts and prayers go out to you.

carolyn at cranberry crossings: said...

Oh no! I'm so sorry for your loss! I know how special pets are.
Bless your hearts. My heart is breaking for all of you. But you did the right thing, as hard as it was.
Sending you a big hug.

Farm Field Primitives said...

I am so sorry for your loss. If only we didn't have to make those painful decisions. He knows you did all you could and he patiently waits to see you one day again. You are in my prayers.

~Melissa~

Kath said...

Hi Debbi,
I am so very sorry about Kasper.

(((hugs)))
-Kath

UPON A HILL said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. We had to put our cat to sleep. It truly is hard for everyone

Beth in NC said...

Awwwww, I'm so sorry! :o( It is so hard to lose a pet.

Holly Hills Primitives said...

I'm so, so sorry about the loss of your friend. I have a Boxer named Rosie that I dearly love. I know how I would feel if it were her. I hope you can move on and feel better soon.

Merrie. said...

I am so sorry. They always leave us way too soon; I have the same worries with my boys as they are older 7,9. It sounds like your babies were really loved tho' and had extremely good lives, although not long enough lives. You are in our hearts and prayers; Merrie and all the bully dogs.

cynthia lee designs said...

Debbi,
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss of Kasper. I know exactly what you are going through...we had to put our Yorkie-Po to sleep 2 weeks ago today. He had an enlarged heart & congestive heart failure and took a turn for the worse...and we promised that we would not let him suffer when the time came, but it is so very hard to say goodbye. He was 11 and 1/2 years old. I too have cried so much to where the skin around my eyes hurts to touch it...and I have tears as I read your post. My heart breaks for you during this difficult time. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
hugs, Cindy
cynthialeedesigns.wordpress.com

bluejeanprimitives said...

Oh Honey... I'm so sorry to hear this. Our fur babies are such a huge part of our lives.

Seems he was loved greatly!

Huggles n' Snuggles to you

Barb said...

Oh, Debbi, I'm so sorry to hear about your pup. I promise God is going to send something soon to ease your pain and fill your void. You are in my prayers.

Diane said...

I am so sorry you had to put your little dog to sleep, but deep down you know it was for the best, to save iot suffering. I had to put my dog Lucy down nearly 6 1/2 years ago and i still think about her even though we have 2 great new dogs, she was always my favorite girl. Soon time will let you love another dog, lots out there these days that have been abandoned hope you find a new love soon...X

Angie said...

I am so sad for you and your family! We just went through letting my 'soul mate Badger' go on 2-25-09 and I really do understand your heart break. I cry with you and send you quilted hugs to wrap up in.

Debbi said...

Thank you ladies for all your kind words and well wishes. Like they say..Life goes on , but it just so lonely and sad without my buddy "Kasper" He will be missed forever.

Denise said...

I am so sorry. Hugs to you and your family.

Denise

Terri(TerriBoog) said...

Debbie, I am so sorry for your loss. One of my saddest days was when we had to say goodbye to our little schnauzer. I feel your sadness......... I'm so sorry!

Celia said...

I am very sorry for your loss. I know our pets become our family and that is one of the hardest things to deal with. Praying for you because I know it takes alot of time to heal!
Blessings!

janet said...

sorry for your lose